Flew on a plane today - am in San Diego. There was one point where we were above the clouds and all I could see was miles and miles of cloud plains and cloud mountains far off. I was listening to Kaki King. It was amazing.
Then for my second flight I was listening to Neurosis. Very different, but also awesome.
I found myself not caring if the plane crashed or not, I really want to go home. I wish there weren't work left here to do so we could all go home. As noted by my "vitals" column over there, I'm in the midst of some severe apathy... about everything. I could care less about one thing or another, having fun doesn't sound fun anymore, I don't care about sleeping because I have to wake up again, I'm always down but don't want to be comforted. This has been slowly progressing for a while, I see myself as worthless despite what kinds of evidences I see, read or hear otherwise. I just don't know. It will go away. Time passes, God heals.
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I want to go home too. I'm glad to see that in the midst of your apathy, you still hang onto the truth that it will go away BECAUSE (and this is the important part) God heals. Some people say "Time heals everything." That is a L-I-E!!!! Time can't heal crap. GOD is the Healer, with a capital "H" (because names are capitalized. God has many names in order to reveal His attributes. One is Jehovah-rapha "The Lord who Heals".Love ya, Mom
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