(Small Realizations) Pt.4 of ? - Singleness Pt.1 of ?

Time has been going by... so slowly. Maybe it's just the beach town life, but I don't know, it might have been going slowly before that. It seems quick while it's happening, but when I try to look back a week or two, or even a few days, it seems like so much more time has passed.

I cannot believe that I just "became single" a little over a week ago. It feels like it's been so long.

Other things about being single include feeling... back to normal? I don't know, it's just that I've been single for 20 years of my life. It's a lot more laid back, easy, inexpensive, but a lot less rewarding.

I think I'm single now for a reason - God wants my full attention while being an intern at Ecola. So that's what I'm committing. Do not (try my best) think upon girls until at least summer. This should be fairly easy, as there's a strict no-dating policy between interns and students anyway.

Irony was a big part of this as well. A break-up letter and a book I ordered in order to help fix our relationship arrived on the same day. Ha. Incidentally, one of the saddest times (break-up) was immediately followed by one of the happiest times (Left 4 Dead released). Ha HA! I see a divine sense of humor in all this.

Moving on is hard too. Ideas keep popping into my head of "what if..."s such as getting back together. I realize I shouldn't be hoping for such a thing (as I kind of think it impossible), but it doesn't stop me from the delusional hope of a possibility. Sigh. I wonder how long this will last? Pfft. It's only been a week.

Companionship was great. On this dude's blog (Which was, ironically, linked to me by my "ex") he says he started praying for his future wife way before he even met her. That's a good idea too.

I need to stop blogging about this. I don't know where else to let it out, though. I know that at least someone in the world will sympathize with me if I put it here, even if they don't say anything or reveal themselves.

Good things are around me, good things are coming. There's no reason to be a pessimist. (I've heard three separate messages about Thanksliving in the past four days. So weird. I might write one just keep spreading that cheesy word.)

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In other news, I saw that new Pixar movie Bolt tonight - in 3D! It was good, top notch Pixar stuff as usual.

Watching some funny Youtube tonight - search for "The Muska Incident" so funny. "I had to rescue the Muska from the bad guys!" XD

Bluetooth headsets - how did we live so long without them?

Steel drums are probably the coolest form of percussion when applied correctly.

If you don't listen to drone music late at night, you should. Check out Loscil, Aidan Baker, Windy & Carl, and Slow Dancing Society.

Black Friday is going to be neat.