Reunion Weekend

This weekend at Ecola is reunion weekend. I was excited, but I don't remember why because it's probably the most unnerving thing I've gone through in a while.

Recently in our intern classes, we took the DISC test to find out our personality types. I scored a high C which is on the passive/task-oriented side of the spectrum and which makes a lot of sense. Generally people like this get worn out and stressed and can't work when there are a lot of people around. This is very true for me. The whole night last night I sat in the sound booth and didn't leave that comfort bubble until I finally did leave and go sit behind the merchandise table with people I knew, casually greeting some people who would walk up. It's weird because I've always been this way, but didn't really know why or take notice of it in the way I'm doing now.

Before this weekend I felt pretty distant toward the rest of this year's student body, and with the reunion coming up, I was looking forward to seeing a lot of people I was close to. Turns out I wasn't really close to anyone. As far as friends go, I tend to find a few and stick with those few all the time. I have a lot of acquaintances who I find pleasant, but very few people I actually feel comfortable around, and most everyone at this reunion is an acquaintance and if they're a little more than an acquaintance, there's always someone else that they know better that they're going to be hanging out with anyway. This leaves me in a strange limbo of familiarity and insecurity and I find that when one of this year's students walks in the door, someone who I would normally feel distant from, I practically breath a sigh of relief that there's a few more degrees of comfort added to the room.

Overall, this weekend more than anything, is drawing me closer to this year's class in a strange psychological way that I totally didn't expect and which will be for the better.